Wonderous world of Personality

There are many things to consider and delve deeper into before we can say anything about the reality of our own idiosyncrasies with respect to the periodic antithesis. The fusion of juxtapositions between the two results in something totally different.

Here, I asked ChatGPT to make my thoughts easily understandable, but it fucked it up. So consider it this way: it is impossible to spend time and effort on something as invaluable as the Mona Lisa without depicting your own personal emotions in the process of enhancing the art. But that leads to something that isn't Lady Lisa or even Davinci himself. It is the fusion between the two emotional entities fighting among themselves. That makes the art so indispensable. But the sense of dissociating the amalgamated pieces of emotions according to individuality and sheer enigma is only acceptable in the case of art and not in reality.

Let's go a level deep. Atheists just skip. Do you think the creator has their own sense of touch or an intellectual pinch of salt when creating someone? Yes, it does, as every child who comes into this world is considered pure and, up to a certain age, termed as even angel. Is God doing mitosis, making two progenies equally pure (now this is overthinking, lmao)? But the gravitational pull of this materialistic world is so great that we forget the sense of creator-given pure personality (but is it right to call that our own?). And then the cycle of absorbing new personalities begins, which never stops.

The consciousness of changing the way you talk, walk, and even think according to your surroundings has its eternal boon, getting praise for your watery behaviour (easily adjustable). I am not saying it is bad, but living in these ever-changing surroundings with your malleable behaviour will someday lead to losing something way more precious, which you call your own. And how can you tell the difference between the habit of external behaviours (which you are practising every day) and your unique personality fading? You just can't, I too can't.

A sense of personal individuality is still unknown for almost everyone (including me) up until their deathbed while alive. Because people say death is the only way to truth, which I idk about. Here is a random conversation between me and my friend.

Me- Bhai, am I okay to be influenced by something with such little time as a movie? 

Friend: Pehle chai la be

Latha hu lawde sun tho pehle, Kal 12th fail dekhi. Aab man kar rha hai ki UPSC karlu. (more explaining)

Friend: Bhai, 2 min shant reh kar soch. Is it an action that came from the inside or a reaction to something from the outside?

(after 10 seconds) reaction to watching the movie Man.

Friend: Then how can it be your thought? And if it is not your own thought, how can you maintain constant motivation?

Me: Tu bhagwan hai bsdk.

Friend: Chal chai la aab

And just like me, the personalities of most people change with time by adding or deleting various characteristics to improve themselves. It can be as little as a dialogue you repeated after a movie or your friend's thought now that you consider it your own. See how a movie can lead to variations in important decisions in life. Same as how a leader can influence people into something they are not. Exactly like the presence of toxic BFFs can lead to drastic consequences in your relationship, The homology here is the watery personality that we all carry indefinitely and mutate so quickly by trusting the movie, leader, or BFFs with blinded vision. My opinion is to open your fucking eyes, for god sake, and see the live TV for yourself instead of being shown through a camera directed by the leader.

The absence of knowing anything about your unique behaviour and preferences is the only thing leading to divorces in the modern world or your children doing drugs and suicide. Want me to explain this? 

See, we are all in a constant state of verification from others about our lives, whether to masturbate using the right or left hand, how many fingers to poke my own asshole, etc. Without giving it a thought, do I really need it? Am I not enough? Unaccompanied by knowing your true nature of being a righty or lefty, And imagine it this way...

You and your partner are unaware of your individual true natures, behaviours, likes, and dislikes, with a constant state of expectation from the other to understand the likes, dislikes, and behaviours to make you happy, without you knowing you to make you happy. Resulting in an unending state of civil war, post-marital rapes, and your children becoming alcoholics. Still unknowingly not accepting our mistakes, we say—are humko koi bathane wala hi nhi that mental health ke bare me? 

So, instead of masturbating with your recessive hand and blaming others for your happiness, Know your true personality. I don't know why, but people these days are proud of showcasing their synthetic personalities. Maybe it is a defensive mechanism or just a borrowed dialogue.

I hope this was valuable for your time and will help you know you. To make you clear, verity in any sense is most attractive in every sense. Just simple, unvarnished, authentic, and inconsequential nature and even looks is beauty beyond this realm. Even something as simple as a sunkissed orange showing off its strength is beautiful. (And I am starving as well.)

Cheers!